You can fail at anything… why not do it doing something you love?
Happy Sunday babes, today I want to take a break from all the food talk to dig a little deeper.
Let me ask you something…
what are you investing your time in the most right now? Is it something that lights your soul on fire? If not, let me ask you why? Is it because of comfort? Or because it’s easy? Well, let me push you out of that comfort zone by reminding you that at any moment this could all end. You could get fired, maybe fail a class. And taking it a little bit far; even your life could end. I don’t know about you, but that puts a lot into perspective for me. I would rather give it all up for something I absolutely love – because if I fail, at least every minute leading up to that moment filled my heart with joy.
I have had my heart set on moving to Bali for months now. Giving away everything I own and starting fresh in a new continent. I had planned to be there for a few months and then continuing my journey around the globe. As of today, my plans have completely changed. God has been speaking to me for a while now, and it took me some time to hear him. But I finally heard him. Loud and clear. I had to step back and be honest with myself! Me running off to a new continent and continuing to bounce around is me running away from my fears. Doing what comes easy to me because moving is second nature to me. I attended 13 different schools growing up, and have lived in 4 different countries so far. I am used to bouncing around and not committing to anything. Staying in one place means investing, building, finding ground – to me that is the unknown; and that is why I almost allowed myself to spend another year on the run.
After being in Florida for a week and paying attention to the signs, my thoughts, and my heart, I found answers – something I might have never been able to notice if I didn’t have the self-awareness I have today. I think that is a big part of the reason why I have spent so much time running. Lack of self-awareness. But today I can wholeheartedly say I know who I am, and what I am here to do. I don’t have to be in Asia to find peace because that is something I carry within. I don’t have to be in Asia to find happiness because that is something I carry within. I am happiest when I am serving, when I am creating, when I am speaking my truth. As much as I love adventure, this Gypsy needs to build a foundation and start putting everything she has learnt into practice. I strongly believe that I have learnt things that can transform lives, so I am ready to be in one place, build a strong foundation, and do just that!
I wanted to share this for a couple of reasons – to hold myself accountable to stay in one place instead of falling back into the comfort of moving from place to place. The other reason is for you to reflect on your current situation. Are you being honest with yourself? Are you running from something? Are you doing something you love?
“What if I fail? Oh, but my darling, what if you fly?”
Cover image: @susiejetta @tsoragency